This is the way I live.

I'm feeling.. a little selfish today, and it's odd. I'm not a fan. What's even more odd is that my horoscope recommends I take a little time for myself today because people might not be such a great idea. I've never been one for taking astrology to heart, but maybe I'll consider it. Hmm. Just have to make sure I don't take anything out on anyone else, especially that Superman. This is a strange, shitty feeling. I'll get over it. With the emotional range of a teaspoon and a two second rebound rate, how could I not? Haha:)

I continue to run into the nicest people lately, something sparked by reuniting with old friends and making acquaintances into real friendships. It's good:) As usual, FML is growing and excellent, I know there's nothing I can't do or say when I'm with them. With the ever lovely Sabrinasaurus back in my life (I'm honestly not sure why we separated in the first place, honestly), I have a consistent reality check and a constant reminder to "Stay Positive," even though things get really shitty sometimes, because there's always someone holding me up. I'm a big fan of yours, girrrl:)

As per usual, TBJeff is an amazing friend and I honestly am unsure where I'd be without him. He's picked me up off the floor so many times no matter what I did to get myself there, and is entirely fearless. You're so strong, and I love you boyyyy:)

VWAdam, the best friend to my boyfriend, is appearing to become one helluva guy. Superbowl Sunday was epic, couldn't've shit talked without you, man. And of course, his girl Daniiii is wonderful! Shy and reserved, but honestly couldn't be nicer. A mutual "friend" (minus the quotes for her life, include them for mine) apparently had some not-so-nice things to say about me, but she dgafs and wants her own opinions :) my favorite kind of person. She's a doll, really.

Other than these people, everyone that's been in my life has remained just as stable as ever, and have understood how much of a mess has been made since Halloween and early November, and have helped me understand what is my fault and what is heresay and most of all, which are the things I shouldn't care about.

PopsiclePatty, I don't hate you. But you are someone I have absolutely ZERO respect for. I feel empty when I'm around you. Not angry, or spiteful, or anything. Just bland. Because I frankly don't care about you. It sucks, cause I used to so much, but in more than one way you've earned this.
SirHalloween.... dgaf. you earned this. gtfo.


NavyBoy: I'm still sorry, and I still can't believe this. But you know what hurts the most? After everything you and I have done, things I've done to help you out and you've done to help me... this only shows that I don't mean nearly as much to you as you do to me. I think about you every day, and you'll probably always be considered my best friend, even if you did have to make a choice to keep yourself afloat. Don't get me wrong, I understand what happened and where I went wrong. I miss you. I hate you. But if you don't need me, I guess I don't need you.

I've got people missing, people who are constantly present, and people who are showing up at random. This is life. And this is exactly the way I want to live it. Love it. DGAF.